Payback?

Last weekend I raced Turtle Pond. It was cold, it was hard, the race wasn't very much fun. When it was over, I tried to pump up my teammate CR before her race and encourage her. The result was that I made it into her blog. The downside was that I read it. The payback was thinking of this over and over as I went mountain biking Thursday. What was I thinking over and over???

"You suck, but just keep going anyway"

"It's a nice day for a long LT ride - NOT"

"I don't belong racing in this category"

The result is that I will reenter the mountain bike scene as a beginner. Thank you MRK!